There have been many people in my life who have helped me by loving me, hating me, complimenting me, criticizing me, and picking me up when they've pushed me down. These experiences may not have been pleasant, but they are all a part of me and will always be with me, for better or for worse.
No matter how much we want to change the past, we can't. We have to deal with that. Think in the present and plan for the future! The future is in our control and we can change it if we want to. If you want to feel happier, take steps to being happier. If you want to be smarter, faster, stronger, kinder, thinner, braver, better, take steps now! What are you waiting for?
If you don't like a trait, take steps to change in so you don't have to deal with it in the future, which will quickly be the past again! If you are struggling in a relationship, figure out how to fix it. That might be getting help from family and friends, seeing someone professionally, or leaving the relationship altogether. Successfully completing any of the former options makes a person stronger and is something to be proud of.
Once you accomplish it, you'll have to maintain it. This won't require as much help. However, you don't want to fall over backwards. If you are motivated and willing and able to become a certain way, you certainly have the ability to maintain it.
"Work It Harder Make It Better
Do It Faster, Makes Us Stronger
More Than Ever Hour After
Our Work Is Never Over"
- Daft Punk
Everyone needs help. Everyone.
"No matter what accomplishments you make, somebody helps you."
- Althea Gibson
Again, e-v-e-r-y-o-n-e needs help.
Those who get help are the successful ones. Some may need more help than others, but everyone needs it. Do not be ashamed, embarrassed, or frustrated by the fact that you need help. You are not alone. Again, you are not alone. You aren't the first and you won't be the last.
You are able. You do matter. People love you and want to help you. I promise you that.
Q
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
I hope this is true
I just adore this song. But right now the lyrics are telling me about my life. I hope these words are true and I know I've heard most of them.
The Reason lyrics
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
The Reason lyrics
I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]
I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know
I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you
I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you
Monday, August 24, 2009
Friendship Stats
According to http://www.friendshipstats.com...
I have 372 friends, 252 more than average.
58% are male, 42% are female.
110 are single, 145 are dating or married.
If I contracted a deadly variant of flu, I would likely infect 12 people, 2 of whom would die.
When I share something on Facebook, it is typically viewed by 25 people.
If I died today, an estimated 486 people would try to attend my funeral.
Based on my Facebook profile, I have a 92% probability of getting married.
I am likely to earn US$3.6 million and have 2.4 children over my lifetime.
Yay. :)
Q
I have 372 friends, 252 more than average.
58% are male, 42% are female.
110 are single, 145 are dating or married.
If I contracted a deadly variant of flu, I would likely infect 12 people, 2 of whom would die.
When I share something on Facebook, it is typically viewed by 25 people.
If I died today, an estimated 486 people would try to attend my funeral.
Based on my Facebook profile, I have a 92% probability of getting married.
I am likely to earn US$3.6 million and have 2.4 children over my lifetime.
Yay. :)
Q
Thursday, July 9, 2009
I am a Fantastic Person, Really
Challenge #3: Improving My Self-Esteem
No matter how many times Nathan tells me I'm beautiful, how often professors say I'm smart, or my friends say I'm strong, I don't always believe it. I try so hard to, but I tend to forget when I need it the most.
So, here's to arrogance for a few sentences:
I am smart, attractive, accomplished, and able. Very little can stand in my way. I change for me, and for nobody else. I care for myself just as I care for others. I am important, worth while, and I deserve good things. I have a driving force that is carrying me through my college years. There are people in my life who love me and care for me, even if I can't see them through the fog. I feel better after venting, and most outlets for stress are acceptable, including sharing that stress with friends. I don't need to apologize for the way I am.
There we go. I feel better now. While this paragraph is tailored to me, each person out there has a list of amazing accomplishments that they may or may not be aware of. I encourage you to write yours, or ask me and I can write it.
Challenge #3: Work in Progress
Q
Could this double as a personals ad? Maybe not.
No matter how many times Nathan tells me I'm beautiful, how often professors say I'm smart, or my friends say I'm strong, I don't always believe it. I try so hard to, but I tend to forget when I need it the most.
So, here's to arrogance for a few sentences:
I am smart, attractive, accomplished, and able. Very little can stand in my way. I change for me, and for nobody else. I care for myself just as I care for others. I am important, worth while, and I deserve good things. I have a driving force that is carrying me through my college years. There are people in my life who love me and care for me, even if I can't see them through the fog. I feel better after venting, and most outlets for stress are acceptable, including sharing that stress with friends. I don't need to apologize for the way I am.
There we go. I feel better now. While this paragraph is tailored to me, each person out there has a list of amazing accomplishments that they may or may not be aware of. I encourage you to write yours, or ask me and I can write it.
Challenge #3: Work in Progress
Q
Could this double as a personals ad? Maybe not.
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Quoting Dr. Dodge
Challenge #2 Tolerating Others' Life Styles
If I've learned anything in my year-long experience with Dr. Dodge, professor of Economics at Hanover College, is that he doesn't tolerate laziness and whining. If a person is lazy about getting their work done and fails to do so, then there is no point for them to be wasting money on school. Laziness at work sometimes slide, but in an economy like this, it'll lose you your job in a heartbeat.
I used to be lazy, for sure. I wouldn't finish all my homework in high school, I'd half-ass study for tests, and my grades proved it to be true. Going to Hanover taught me that half-assing your way through life is a waste of time, space, and money. I despise people who simply glide on the accomplishments of others. My strong drive now started out much weaker before I entered drumline.
Drumline taught me that people have to strive for their goals, or else it isn't worth any effort. Teamwork was very essential, because if one person wasn't pulling their weight, the whole drumline became a joke. One missed note, one wrong step, and the judges lose focus on the good and comment on the errors made.
Then getting into college showed me that laziness is just a waste of money, whether it's your money or your parents'.
Don't waste time. You only have 100 years to live, and a third of that time is spent sleeping. So you really only have 66 or so years to live and cherish it.
Yes, people can stress to the point of yelling, but they are also living and striving towards a goal. Motivation comes in many forms, and one of the biggest motivators is setting a goal for yourself. Try it. Try spending time with motivated people. Start small, and eventually you'll strive towards bigger and better things. Never settle for reality.
Challenge #2 Failed.
Q
If I've learned anything in my year-long experience with Dr. Dodge, professor of Economics at Hanover College, is that he doesn't tolerate laziness and whining. If a person is lazy about getting their work done and fails to do so, then there is no point for them to be wasting money on school. Laziness at work sometimes slide, but in an economy like this, it'll lose you your job in a heartbeat.
I used to be lazy, for sure. I wouldn't finish all my homework in high school, I'd half-ass study for tests, and my grades proved it to be true. Going to Hanover taught me that half-assing your way through life is a waste of time, space, and money. I despise people who simply glide on the accomplishments of others. My strong drive now started out much weaker before I entered drumline.
Drumline taught me that people have to strive for their goals, or else it isn't worth any effort. Teamwork was very essential, because if one person wasn't pulling their weight, the whole drumline became a joke. One missed note, one wrong step, and the judges lose focus on the good and comment on the errors made.
Then getting into college showed me that laziness is just a waste of money, whether it's your money or your parents'.
Don't waste time. You only have 100 years to live, and a third of that time is spent sleeping. So you really only have 66 or so years to live and cherish it.
Yes, people can stress to the point of yelling, but they are also living and striving towards a goal. Motivation comes in many forms, and one of the biggest motivators is setting a goal for yourself. Try it. Try spending time with motivated people. Start small, and eventually you'll strive towards bigger and better things. Never settle for reality.
Challenge #2 Failed.
Q
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Miss Independent
This is for those who want to know a bit about me, or are simply looking for some inspiration.
I've faced various challenges and obstacles in my brief existence.
Challenge #1: Becoming independent from men.
I was successfully independent from men after a crippling break up this past October, and enjoyed every minute of loneliness until Nathan reappeared in my life in April. I was able to fall in love again and possibly for the last time. I was able to do this because I had taken the necessary and much needed time to be alone for long enough to realize what was truly important to me. This is something I highly recommend for any person struggling with relationships. You can't see the whole picture until you step back far enough to bring it all into your field of vision.
Nathan allows me to be independent and has helped me become more self-aware. I'm now able to see clearly how I react in various situations, some of which I would resort to old habits. Since I had time to realize what I wanted in a person, I was also able to alter my drawbacks to the best of my ability. Obviously I won't cater to him or change for anybody but myself, but I am a better person than I used to be.
Challenge #1: Check.
Challenge #2: Coming soon!
Q
I've faced various challenges and obstacles in my brief existence.
Challenge #1: Becoming independent from men.
I was successfully independent from men after a crippling break up this past October, and enjoyed every minute of loneliness until Nathan reappeared in my life in April. I was able to fall in love again and possibly for the last time. I was able to do this because I had taken the necessary and much needed time to be alone for long enough to realize what was truly important to me. This is something I highly recommend for any person struggling with relationships. You can't see the whole picture until you step back far enough to bring it all into your field of vision.
Nathan allows me to be independent and has helped me become more self-aware. I'm now able to see clearly how I react in various situations, some of which I would resort to old habits. Since I had time to realize what I wanted in a person, I was also able to alter my drawbacks to the best of my ability. Obviously I won't cater to him or change for anybody but myself, but I am a better person than I used to be.
Challenge #1: Check.
Challenge #2: Coming soon!
Q
Friday, May 29, 2009
Here's to you
Today I spent my morning with my dear friend Drew. While clumsily swinging at a tennis ball back and forth, we shared a conversation, provoked by him.
He asked, "So, Nate? How long have you known him?"
I said, "Well, pretty much my entire life, but we reconnected in high school, and that's where we became such great friends."
Drew - "So what made you start dating him?"
Me - "Well, I guess I finally realized that he's always been there for me, and that I do really care for him, so I thought we could give it a shot. He had liked me for awhile, but I was always with someone else. I, haha, feel as though I had a bit of an epiphany, realizing that I had strong feelings for him! So I told him."
Drew - "On behalf of every man in this world, THANK YOU!"
Me - "Haha, what do you mean?"
Drew - "Do you know how many men live their entire lives in love with their best friend, always wishing for something more, but always been told that they're a 'good friend'? I'm sure Nate was excited to hear you say that to him."
You know, we're taking a big risk, and I'm scared out of my mind. But I want it. It's thrilling. There are many obstacles, but we can conquer them; I know we can.
Q
He asked, "So, Nate? How long have you known him?"
I said, "Well, pretty much my entire life, but we reconnected in high school, and that's where we became such great friends."
Drew - "So what made you start dating him?"
Me - "Well, I guess I finally realized that he's always been there for me, and that I do really care for him, so I thought we could give it a shot. He had liked me for awhile, but I was always with someone else. I, haha, feel as though I had a bit of an epiphany, realizing that I had strong feelings for him! So I told him."
Drew - "On behalf of every man in this world, THANK YOU!"
Me - "Haha, what do you mean?"
Drew - "Do you know how many men live their entire lives in love with their best friend, always wishing for something more, but always been told that they're a 'good friend'? I'm sure Nate was excited to hear you say that to him."
You know, we're taking a big risk, and I'm scared out of my mind. But I want it. It's thrilling. There are many obstacles, but we can conquer them; I know we can.
Q
Thursday, May 21, 2009
The Best of Olympic Park Institute (lots of pictures!)
I just had the best time in the NW these past two weeks! I think I found my new home! Okay, maybe not in the park, but definitely on the west coast! So beautiful, so much life! A wonderful time was had and we learned so much! I wish I had been able to keep up with the day to day stuff on here, but we were already writing a journal for the class! Enjoy the pictures!
I'm just so in love with the NW and I had a lot of time to do thinking about my life and what I want to do in the near and far future. More later on that. In the meantime, some lyrics I can't get out of my head!!!
"Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I was meant for you"
- from " Someday We'll Know" by New Radicals
Q
I'm just so in love with the NW and I had a lot of time to do thinking about my life and what I want to do in the near and far future. More later on that. In the meantime, some lyrics I can't get out of my head!!!"Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue
Someday we'll know
Why I was meant for you"
- from " Someday We'll Know" by New Radicals
Q
Sunday, May 10, 2009
Portland and Seattle
Here are some pictures from Seattle, WA and Portland, OR! Do you think I could make it as a photographer? :-)
Thursday, April 30, 2009
Crush
So here's to another *feeling* blog post. I'm emotionally all over the place at the moment, and trying to avoid studying, so here goes.
I'm feeling like I'm in love. I know it's crazy, but it's true. This song came on my iTunes DJ (whatever the heck they've been doing over there at Apple, my goodness), and it's been playing in my head ever since. It's an awful song, but the lyrics are pretty accurate for right now.
"Crush" Performed by David Archuleta
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
‘Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It’s just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I’ve just got to know
Do you ever think when you’re all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
‘Cause I’m trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we’re hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take
‘Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever
Do you ever think when you’re all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
‘Cause I’m trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I’ve just got to know
I know, super cheesy. Trust me. I'm one of the most realistic people out there. But right now, man. I don't know what caused it today. Maybe his soft voice (which is rare to hear!) when he showed genuine concern for me? I'm a sucker for low, soft voices. Who knows?
Let's see what happens!
I swear I'll have a legitimate post soon!
Q
I'm feeling like I'm in love. I know it's crazy, but it's true. This song came on my iTunes DJ (whatever the heck they've been doing over there at Apple, my goodness), and it's been playing in my head ever since. It's an awful song, but the lyrics are pretty accurate for right now.
"Crush" Performed by David Archuleta
I hung up the phone tonight
Something happened for the first time deep inside
It was a rush, what a rush
‘Cause the possibility
That you would ever feel the same way about me
It’s just too much, just too much
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I’ve just got to know
Do you ever think when you’re all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
‘Cause I’m trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Has it ever crossed your mind
When we’re hanging, spending time girl, are we just friends?
Is there more, is there more?
See it’s a chance we’ve gotta take
‘Cause I believe that we can make this into something that will last
Last forever, forever
Do you ever think when you’re all alone
All that we can be, where this thing can go?
Am I crazy or falling in love?
Is it real or just another crush?
Do you catch a breath when I look at you?
Are you holding back like the way I do?
‘Cause I’m trying and trying to walk away
But I know this crush ain’t goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Goin’ away-ay-ay-ay-ayy
Why do I keep running from the truth?
All I ever think about is you
You got me hypnotized, so mesmerized
And I’ve just got to know
I know, super cheesy. Trust me. I'm one of the most realistic people out there. But right now, man. I don't know what caused it today. Maybe his soft voice (which is rare to hear!) when he showed genuine concern for me? I'm a sucker for low, soft voices. Who knows?
Let's see what happens!
I swear I'll have a legitimate post soon!
Q
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Self-Esteem
I did not write this. But I like it and need it right now.
Ten quick tips to improve your self esteem
1. Do what you love.
Everyone loves to do something, when you indulge yourself in your love you improve the way you feel about yourself. You improve your self esteem.
2. Help others out.
Nothing makes you feel a warm glow than when you unselfishly help others. of course you can argue that this in itself is selfish, but if you take that line of thought you must think that existence is selfish. Forget that. Just do a good deed, help someone out, doesn’t have to be big and it doesn’t have to cost any money.
3. Acknowledge your strengths
There is no one who has no strengths. Everyone is good at something, know what your good at and give yourself a pat on the back. Do things that bring this quality out into the open. Excercise it, make it stronger.
4. Don’t put up with crap.
There is no reason you should tolerate other people being mean to you. Even if they say they are doing it with love. Make sure people know they should be nice to you and if they refuse, walk away from them.
5. Drop your negative friends.
Hang out with people who are positive and support you. It may be fun to bitch and moan but if you hang out with these types of people you will eventually become one of them. You may have noticed that people who bitch and moan are never happy.
6. Do your research
A lof of self help books are a waste of time in the sense that the only person who can change you is you. Reading even this blog post will not change you unless you get emotionally involved with the information. Which is really hard as it’s really dry and boring. Go read biographies of people you respect, people who do positvive things and attain huge success. Learn from the master not the self help guru who is always in debt.
7. Learn to accept compliments.
It’s hard to accept a compliment and not to dismiss it as being ridiculous. Someone has an opinion and it should be respected, even if you do not argree with it. If people think good about you then maybe you should too.
8. Include positivity in your life.
I’m not talking an airy fairy chant in the mirror whilst naked. I mean take a positive slant on everything automatically. The meat pie you just bit in to may contain maggots, but maggots contain a lot of protien. OK that’s a bit extreme but you get the point.
9. Compare yourself against yourself.
If you look at how you were yesterday and how you are today and there is an improvement then that is great. If there is no improvement then you know you need to improve your efforts. Don’t start comparing your self to other people. Saying you are poor compared to D. Trump is just going to make you miserable.
10. There is no need for you to put yourself down.
By seeing yourself in a negative light you are only reinforcing your low self esteem. If you want to improve your self esteem. Ask yourself, how can I improve my self esteem. The answer will always be, find one positive thing about yourself and that will do it.
"Serenity now." - Dodge
"Well I guess, I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care
Right? Yeah!
Now I'll relay this little bit
It happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night, she knocks on my door
She's drunk again and, looking to score
Now I know, I should say no, but
It's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb, but I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem"
- The Offspring
I like these lyrics right now. Oh man.
Hopefully future posts will be happier. I'm working on one right now that talks about my summer! But for right now, things aren't great.
Q
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Venting (Night before last 2 finals)
So, I can't decide what lies in my future, and that scares me senseless! The fact that I don't have a summer job lined up is terrifying and causes me to lose sleep. I'm a person who schedules, plans, plots, and writes anything and everything down so I don't forget. I have post-it notes covering everything, printed and edited to-do lists, and an alarm set for every important meeting that I have in my phone.
Strange? I'd like it to think not, but it's how I operate.
Now, let's throw in a touch of spontaneity. I can have fun. I swear! Right now it doesn't seem like that is the case, but really I can break loose and enjoy myself. Ever seen me dance? Well there you go.
Let's keep that dash of spontaneity and throw in a cup of Type B personality. Oh man! I'm a full blown A, and I've come to grips with that. However, as tasty and satisfying the B is, it may be very unhealthy. An occasional snack? That's fine. However, adding it to my daily diet may not be the best in the end. Hm...
You know, I sometimes wish other people (besides Andrew (-: ) would read this and be able to comment. But maybe it's good that others don't read this.
Q
Strange? I'd like it to think not, but it's how I operate.
Now, let's throw in a touch of spontaneity. I can have fun. I swear! Right now it doesn't seem like that is the case, but really I can break loose and enjoy myself. Ever seen me dance? Well there you go.
Let's keep that dash of spontaneity and throw in a cup of Type B personality. Oh man! I'm a full blown A, and I've come to grips with that. However, as tasty and satisfying the B is, it may be very unhealthy. An occasional snack? That's fine. However, adding it to my daily diet may not be the best in the end. Hm...
You know, I sometimes wish other people (besides Andrew (-: ) would read this and be able to comment. But maybe it's good that others don't read this.
Q
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
It all makes sense now...
I really appreciated this joke.
Understanding Marketing
You see a fabulous girl/guy at a party. You approach them and say, "I’m fantastic in bed."
That’s Direct Marketing.
You’re at a party with a bunch of friends and see a fabulous girl/guy. You have one of your friends approach them, point at you and say, "She’s/He’s fantastic in bed."
That’s Advertising.
You see a fabulous girl/guy at a party. You approach them to get their telephone number. The next day you call and say, "Hi, I’m fantastic in bed."
That’s Telemarketing.
You’re at a party and see a fabulous girl/guy. You get up, straighten your clothes, walk up and pour them a drink. You open the door, pick up their bag after it drops, offer them a ride, and then say, "By the way, I’m fantastic in bed."
That’s Public Relations.
You’re at a party and see a fabulous girl/guy. They walk up to you and say, "I hear you’re fantastic in bed."
That’s Brand Recognition.
Here is the link to the original site.
Q
Monday, April 6, 2009
Favorite Advertisements
Considering this is the industry I may eventually want to end up in, I figured I could start sharing a few of my favorite advertisements. Here are a bunch of print ads that I think are very creative and effective. (you can click on the picture to see it's full size)
Regarding Viagra, I thought this ad was very clever and it forces the message upon anyone who may happen across it, whether or not they want to know!
This voting ad is simple and yet says a lot. Unfortunately, I feel like those who would pay attention to the ad to begin with are already going to vote. However, with a symbol of death just plastered across the page, it might draw some attention.
I purely thought this M&M's ad was cute. They've been producing customized candies for awhile now, but somebody was thinking really well the day they came up with this!
I just love the unspoken expression being screamed here! It was done very well. This isn't the only one in its series. You can view the rest here.
I'm not going to comment on the rest as they are self explanatory. Enjoy!
Q
Regarding Viagra, I thought this ad was very clever and it forces the message upon anyone who may happen across it, whether or not they want to know!
This voting ad is simple and yet says a lot. Unfortunately, I feel like those who would pay attention to the ad to begin with are already going to vote. However, with a symbol of death just plastered across the page, it might draw some attention.
I purely thought this M&M's ad was cute. They've been producing customized candies for awhile now, but somebody was thinking really well the day they came up with this!
I just love the unspoken expression being screamed here! It was done very well. This isn't the only one in its series. You can view the rest here.I'm not going to comment on the rest as they are self explanatory. Enjoy!
Q
Friday, April 3, 2009
Read Me Before You Do Anything Rash
I stumbled across a very interesting page this evening. This link leads to a very supportive page for anyone who is struggling with their life right now. I am not in any way suicidal right now, but this link still made me soft-hearted and made me feel more alive.
Suicide: Read This First
And to my friends who may be having negative feelings, I am always here for you. No matter what. Call me, text me, email me, I will take time to talk with you. My friends make my life as wonderful as it is, and therefore I share their troubles or at least am there for support. Please please know that I love you, no matter what, and I am, and will always be here for you.
Q
Suicide: Read This First
And to my friends who may be having negative feelings, I am always here for you. No matter what. Call me, text me, email me, I will take time to talk with you. My friends make my life as wonderful as it is, and therefore I share their troubles or at least am there for support. Please please know that I love you, no matter what, and I am, and will always be here for you.
Q
Thursday, April 2, 2009
The People in this World
I've learned a lot about the people this world.
Some are fun loving, some are pessimistic, others are productive, and others live to be lazy. I've met all sorts of people, and I've realized that every person has all of these traits, whether or not they want to admit it or realize it.
Most people choose their "best" and project it, and in the end it usually works out. Others, it does not always work out as well. I wish there was a guideline or a template of what an "ideal" personality was like, but I suppose that is not the case.
I know that there are people like me, who want to change the ways and mindsets of other people. As much as I try to think rationally about and attempt to ignore the qualities I don't care for, it is impossible, and I'm sure others would agree. This reason alone causes people to dispute and argue and is even the cause of wars.
But what do you do when a person you care about chooses a path that is against your philosophy? Maybe you saw it coming, maybe you didn't. Maybe you changed your philosophy multiple times and they followed suit, only to decide on something different from yours. I would love to agree to disagree, but what if that aspect of the respective philosophy's plays a leading role in the lives of the people? Then what?
You move forward. You realize that times have changed. And you move along. Or, you come to grips with it, and deal. And you realize that the relationship with the friend, significant, family member will either remain static, or will fade.
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Some are fun loving, some are pessimistic, others are productive, and others live to be lazy. I've met all sorts of people, and I've realized that every person has all of these traits, whether or not they want to admit it or realize it.
Most people choose their "best" and project it, and in the end it usually works out. Others, it does not always work out as well. I wish there was a guideline or a template of what an "ideal" personality was like, but I suppose that is not the case.
I know that there are people like me, who want to change the ways and mindsets of other people. As much as I try to think rationally about and attempt to ignore the qualities I don't care for, it is impossible, and I'm sure others would agree. This reason alone causes people to dispute and argue and is even the cause of wars.
But what do you do when a person you care about chooses a path that is against your philosophy? Maybe you saw it coming, maybe you didn't. Maybe you changed your philosophy multiple times and they followed suit, only to decide on something different from yours. I would love to agree to disagree, but what if that aspect of the respective philosophy's plays a leading role in the lives of the people? Then what?
You move forward. You realize that times have changed. And you move along. Or, you come to grips with it, and deal. And you realize that the relationship with the friend, significant, family member will either remain static, or will fade.
Q
Wednesday, April 1, 2009
Tough Exterior, Super Soft Interior
This is again a purely venting post, but it's also something I'd love to ask of anyone who has the ability.
Adopt a dog! There are millions of dogs in shelters and rescue programs that deserve loving homes.
There is one thing I swear to do when I have the means. I'm going to adopt a german shepherd; likely a senior. Any senior dog hits the soft spot of my heart.
At home I have a beautiful 13-year old cardigan welsh corgi, Maris, whom I miss on a daily basis. You can see her age in her face, her eyes, and in her lazy daily schedule.
But when that show lead comes out, she becomes a pup and shows her heart out for me!
Here are a few pics of my beautiful old lady.
I miss my dogs.
Adopt a dog! There are millions of dogs in shelters and rescue programs that deserve loving homes.
There is one thing I swear to do when I have the means. I'm going to adopt a german shepherd; likely a senior. Any senior dog hits the soft spot of my heart.
At home I have a beautiful 13-year old cardigan welsh corgi, Maris, whom I miss on a daily basis. You can see her age in her face, her eyes, and in her lazy daily schedule.
But when that show lead comes out, she becomes a pup and shows her heart out for me!
Here are a few pics of my beautiful old lady.
I miss my dogs.
Q
10 Things to Do Daily for a Happier Life
I've read a lot of lists of "what to do to improve your quality of life" and "things to realize that make you special" and what not. I'm not religious to these ten, but I hope to be eventually. This is just my personal list of what should be done on a daily basis to keep one's sanity.
1) Spend 5-10 minutes alone, quietly reflecting on your day ahead/behind. Don't take any calls or text during this time. Just relax. Smile to yourself.
2) Talk to someone who cares about you. It does not matter if it's your roommate, your friend at home, your mother, or a therapist. You need to be reminded that you matter and are capable of great things.
3) Realize that while you are important, others are important too. Let a friend vent to you without interruption or distraction.
4) Similarly to number 3, realize and grasp that life is not fair. It never was, and it never will be. Don't take it personally.
5) Make it a goal to make another person laugh. It will help improve their day.
6) Accomplish something. Make a to-do list, and accomplish something on it. Ex. finishing a report, calling your mother, sending a thank you card. You'll feel good afterward.
7) When a situation arises, ask yourself if it will matter still in a year. If yes, then worry about it and find a solution. If not, then don't.
8) Be realistic. People are not set out to make you happy. Only you control your happiness. Granted, others can help, but only if you let them.
9) Spend 10 minutes each day studying up on the news. It may not make you happy, but it will make you more knowledgeable and will keep you up to speed with the rest of the world.
10) When you lay to bed at night, think about how your day went briefly, then think about the next day and what lies ahead. Switch gears, and think about someone or something in your life that makes your life worth living. You'll sleep well tonight.
Q
1) Spend 5-10 minutes alone, quietly reflecting on your day ahead/behind. Don't take any calls or text during this time. Just relax. Smile to yourself.
2) Talk to someone who cares about you. It does not matter if it's your roommate, your friend at home, your mother, or a therapist. You need to be reminded that you matter and are capable of great things.
3) Realize that while you are important, others are important too. Let a friend vent to you without interruption or distraction.
4) Similarly to number 3, realize and grasp that life is not fair. It never was, and it never will be. Don't take it personally.
5) Make it a goal to make another person laugh. It will help improve their day.
6) Accomplish something. Make a to-do list, and accomplish something on it. Ex. finishing a report, calling your mother, sending a thank you card. You'll feel good afterward.
7) When a situation arises, ask yourself if it will matter still in a year. If yes, then worry about it and find a solution. If not, then don't.
8) Be realistic. People are not set out to make you happy. Only you control your happiness. Granted, others can help, but only if you let them.
9) Spend 10 minutes each day studying up on the news. It may not make you happy, but it will make you more knowledgeable and will keep you up to speed with the rest of the world.
10) When you lay to bed at night, think about how your day went briefly, then think about the next day and what lies ahead. Switch gears, and think about someone or something in your life that makes your life worth living. You'll sleep well tonight.
Q
Monday, March 30, 2009
Crazy Semester
It's been awhile since I've last posted, so I thought I'd post about something that has been restricting my time.
There are a few things I've learned about being a Hanover College Student.
1) Not everybody knows each other, despite the campus' size (less than 1,000 students). Which makes it interesting because you can still meet new people!
2) Despite not knowing everybody, you've at least seen everybody on the campus, so there aren't many new faces; merely new friends. Example: "Hey, weren't you in my *insert class name here* class with me last semester? I thought I recognized you!"
3) Hanover students work about twice as hard as students at other colleges, on average.
4) Every semester, there will be one class that is the class that you either complain about consistently or struggle in consistently, no matter how much you study.
5) Every semester, there is a period of 2-5 days, usually 2-3 weeks before finals week, in which every student on campus is stressed at the same time, to the point of screaming, killing themselves and others. Okay not really, but there is a point in which everybody is so stressed that no one can tolerate to even look at each other for an extended period of time without snapping. So you folks at home, don't mess with these students during this sensitive time in the semester.
That is all.
Q
Oh, and mononucleosis is a drag.
Q
There are a few things I've learned about being a Hanover College Student.
1) Not everybody knows each other, despite the campus' size (less than 1,000 students). Which makes it interesting because you can still meet new people!
2) Despite not knowing everybody, you've at least seen everybody on the campus, so there aren't many new faces; merely new friends. Example: "Hey, weren't you in my *insert class name here* class with me last semester? I thought I recognized you!"
3) Hanover students work about twice as hard as students at other colleges, on average.
4) Every semester, there will be one class that is the class that you either complain about consistently or struggle in consistently, no matter how much you study.
5) Every semester, there is a period of 2-5 days, usually 2-3 weeks before finals week, in which every student on campus is stressed at the same time, to the point of screaming, killing themselves and others. Okay not really, but there is a point in which everybody is so stressed that no one can tolerate to even look at each other for an extended period of time without snapping. So you folks at home, don't mess with these students during this sensitive time in the semester.
That is all.
Q
Oh, and mononucleosis is a drag.
Q
Thursday, March 19, 2009
Purely Venting
Okay, so I know I say I'm in a stage right now where I'm not interested in anybody, but in truth, I kind of am. I can't help it. It's human nature to want to be with some one and it's my nature to feel lonely when I haven't had much social interaction (which I haven't had lately because of the mono).
So, here's the thing. A strong part of me is very much in love with my best friend. I know this, he knows this, my friends know this. When we aren't together (i.e. I'm at school or whatever) I totally feel it, 100% of the time. It's a deep feeling that I haven't felt in a long time, and I know it's real. Whenever he's out with friends, I'm jealous, and that is just me caring! I know it is! I've learned this from myself over time. But I wouldn't be jealous of someone that I only cared about as a friend would I? No!
Anyway, sitting here, typing away while he's 100 miles away is when I feel it the most. I miss him, I love him, and I know he feels the same way. Do I love him because he loves me? Or is it legitimate? That is an entirely different question that will be dealt with at a later date. Moving on!
Then, when we are actually together, the feelings fade. How? Why? I have no idea. They just aren't as strong or they aren't there at all. This might be a bad sign! I've never had this before and God knows I don't know what it means. *pause to think*
Why would the feelings fade? Am I creating some perfect image of a man in my head and then realizing that image isn't real when I see him?
That sounded very mean. He's wonderful, just not perfect. Nobody is. I'm not. Lord help me, I'm not even close.
But I can't decide if it would work or not.
And here is the other thing: I'm in love again with one of my ex's! Wait, strike that. I never fell out of love with him. We only broke up because of circumstance. I'm still very much in love with him but I have no idea if we'll ever live close enough together again to make it work. I would love it if it did, because I really felt that he was the one. I think he felt it too. But we were in high school (and barely in college). A lot has changed. Maybe I shouldn't keep my hopes up.
But here's the thing. I kind of do want to keep my hopes up. Because I was very much in love with him. And what if the thing with my best friend doesn't work out? What if I do realize that I just love him as a friend and nothing more? Then my heart is open to my ex again.
I can't rule anybody out right now. And I can't date anybody right now because it wouldn't be fair to them.
Hm.
Q
So, here's the thing. A strong part of me is very much in love with my best friend. I know this, he knows this, my friends know this. When we aren't together (i.e. I'm at school or whatever) I totally feel it, 100% of the time. It's a deep feeling that I haven't felt in a long time, and I know it's real. Whenever he's out with friends, I'm jealous, and that is just me caring! I know it is! I've learned this from myself over time. But I wouldn't be jealous of someone that I only cared about as a friend would I? No!
Anyway, sitting here, typing away while he's 100 miles away is when I feel it the most. I miss him, I love him, and I know he feels the same way. Do I love him because he loves me? Or is it legitimate? That is an entirely different question that will be dealt with at a later date. Moving on!
Then, when we are actually together, the feelings fade. How? Why? I have no idea. They just aren't as strong or they aren't there at all. This might be a bad sign! I've never had this before and God knows I don't know what it means. *pause to think*
Why would the feelings fade? Am I creating some perfect image of a man in my head and then realizing that image isn't real when I see him?
That sounded very mean. He's wonderful, just not perfect. Nobody is. I'm not. Lord help me, I'm not even close.
But I can't decide if it would work or not.
And here is the other thing: I'm in love again with one of my ex's! Wait, strike that. I never fell out of love with him. We only broke up because of circumstance. I'm still very much in love with him but I have no idea if we'll ever live close enough together again to make it work. I would love it if it did, because I really felt that he was the one. I think he felt it too. But we were in high school (and barely in college). A lot has changed. Maybe I shouldn't keep my hopes up.
But here's the thing. I kind of do want to keep my hopes up. Because I was very much in love with him. And what if the thing with my best friend doesn't work out? What if I do realize that I just love him as a friend and nothing more? Then my heart is open to my ex again.
I can't rule anybody out right now. And I can't date anybody right now because it wouldn't be fair to them.
Hm.
Q
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Piles of Chocolate
This past weekend I tested positive for mono, so I've been taking it easy here at school, going to class when I can, and resting the majority of the time.
My father called and said, "Hey, I want to come visit you and see how you're doing."
I say, "Sure, sounds good."
He says, "Can I bring you anything?"
I say, "Chocolate. I'm craving some chocolate."
Well, not knowing exactly what I wanted, my father sent out one of his employees to buy me some chocolate.
I thought I'd share what was brought to me.
Want any?
Q
My father called and said, "Hey, I want to come visit you and see how you're doing."
I say, "Sure, sounds good."
He says, "Can I bring you anything?"
I say, "Chocolate. I'm craving some chocolate."
Well, not knowing exactly what I wanted, my father sent out one of his employees to buy me some chocolate.
I thought I'd share what was brought to me.
Okay, let's make a list:
- One 6-pack Hershey's Milk Chocolate Bunnies
- One 6-pack Hershey's Milk Chocolate Bunnies
- Two York Peppermint Patties
- One 2-pack King Size Heath Bars
- One 3-pack Dove "Silky Smooth Milk Chocolate" bar
- One pound milk chocolate Easter themed M&M's
- Three Cadbury Creme Eggs
- Four 3-pack generic decorated marshmallow treats
- One 12-pack Little Debbie Big Pack Cosmic Brownies
- One 30 count Hershey's Variety Pack including full size bars of Hershey's chocolate, Hershey's chocolate plus Almonds, Kit Kats, Reese's Cups, and some other type of Reese's bar
- many hot chocolate mixes in many varieties
I wish I had a calorie count on this.
Seriously though, who needs all this?! My God.
Want any?
Q
Monday, March 9, 2009
Is it me? I'm not sure what I do to attract these kinds of people. All I've been hunting for is a few good friends, and I guess I'm not as appealing as a friend as I used to be (though others have argued otherwise). Thoughts? I know I'm really talking to myself here, but I just don't get why some people think it's okay to lift themselves up by bringing others down. Such is life.
Here are some beautiful images that I've found while Stumbling. Seriously, if you don't Stumble, there is something wrong with you. It's the best. Note: None of these images are mine.
Q
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